senseandsensibility

I constantly replay the way I wish it would have happened.

Of course, those dreams are becoming more infrequent now... they have gradually gone from every minute to every hour to every day and now to about once a week or so.

I don't know how you did this to me. I really wish you hadn't.

I would hate you if I didn't love you so much.

thisisall

Edith Hamilton: "When love meets no return the result is suffering, and the greater the love the greater the suffering. There can be no greater suffering than to love purely and perfectly one who is bent upon evil and self-destruction."

Milan Kundera: "There is no means of testing which decision is better, because there is no basis for comparison. We live everything as it comes, without warning, like an actor going on cold. And what can life be worth if the first rehersal for life is life itself?"

Wow. How many things can a girl get hit with in one day?

I gave a talk in Church today. If you're interested in the outline of the talk, you can check it out.

Persevering: Hebrews 3

And, for your viewing pleasure, (in case you don't read Chepo's site)... more David Hasselhoff!!!!!

happybirthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S MY FREAKING 21ST BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

confusionmaker

I love that commercial for Malibu Rum- "If we Carribbeans took life as seriously as the rest of the world... CONFUSION MAKER! Stop it with your high pressure selling techniques!" I don't know why, but I have been calling people confusion-makers for the past few days now.

So, I did my show at 5-7am on KVRX this morning for the first time. Holy crap, is that a difficult spot. However, I got 6 calls... 3 of which were people saying that I needed a better timeslot because my show was incredible! Woot! Maybe it was because I had just woken up so my voice was all deep and sultry-sounding, or maybe it was because they were drunk at 5 in the morning, but still! It was a nice compliment to my music sensibilities. Also, Noble called. He couldn't listen because he was on his way to work and out of range, but he knew I was on the air so he wanted to say hi and good luck. What a sweetheart. I love that kid to death.

Here is a dilemma I want to discuss with all those loyal Infamous Dance readers...

I was laying out in the sun with Katie the other day and as we were sweating in silence, I was thinking about life in general and I came to a realization.

Me being myself presents a problem. I am too "good" for the "bad" boys and I am too "bad" for the "good" boys. If that even makes any sense; I guess I'll try to expound upon that point. So, I don't smoke, do drugs, drink, have sex, etc. so that rules out dating most of the guys that I usually tend to hang out with at shows and parties stuff of that nature. On the other hand, I go to shows and parties and I am loud and crazy and probably a little bit boisterous and not at all the status quo. So, that rules out most of the guys I hang out with at Church. I don't really expect to find a solution to this... I guess I'll just deal with it. Katie suggested "picking a side," but that doesn't work because then I would be operating under false pretenses; trying to be someone that I'm not.

I hate it when girls incessantly complain about their lives (it really does get monotonous, ladies) so this is all I'm saying on this subject. And it's not like I don't go out on dates. I go out with boys often, it's just that I could never really exclusively date any of these guys because either they'd be pissed because I wouldn't sleep with them, or they wouldn't ever want to go out with me to the places I frequent.

Whatever; this sounds like a letter to Oprah or Dr. Phil or somebody.

mayelpasotrippics

OH MY GOSH. FRUSTRATING.

This post was just NOT destined to be. I wrote out this HUGE long thing about everything I did in El Paso... uploaded ONE HUNDRED AND THIRTY ONE pictures for your viewing pleasure... made the post all cute- then my computer randomly shuts down and I lost everything. All the pictures are uploaded to my server... HOWEVER, I can't freaking get it to just be a folder for you loyal readers to search through. Thus, here are 4 pics with summaries of the trip to whet your whistle until I can figure all this garbage out.

First things first, as soon as I got to El Paso, me and my people went to Chico's Tacos- the breakfast/lunch/dinner of champions.



My sister and I discovered that my parents had placed the toilet from my bathroom in our backyard. (It's hot that it is next to the grill: you could be a glutton on steaks and then poop/puke it all out and keep eating!)



My family and I went to Mexico (Palomas to be exact). It was radical- I also scored a freaking hot hand-embroidered, hand-crocheted, hand-sewn, etc. Dress! It looks like a Mexican Marilyn Monroe (white halter style... nice.) If I ever get the freaking folder to work, you can check it out.



And, lastly, the main reason for the El Paso adventure: I was a bridesmaid in my cousin Melanie's wedding. Her colors were brown and pink (something which caused much drama and turmoil for all those involved).



This post isn't nearly as satisfying as the original post was. I am sad. Oh well... as soon as I get the folder to work (I refuse to sit there and link to 131 pictures) I will post it and give the numbers of the highlights.

I got my timeslot for KVRX. I will be on the air (91.7FM or kvrx.org) from 5-7am on Saturday mornings (or Friday nights, depending on how much you party). Holy crap- what a ridiculous time. Perhaps it's the F-bombs dropped during Interim? Who knows. You better listen. Or come in and keep me awake. We could make out.