tolstoy

"There is only one time that is important: now! It is the most important time because it is the only time that we have any power." -- Leo Tolstoy

I need to do more of this- I am always debating my future or past... I think I will focus more on the here and now.

So- who wants to make out?

UGH!

OK! The webcam is NOT working.

I tried to fix it, but I don't know... I was looking at it when Juan was here, but no one else could.

I don't know what the crap, but I'll keep you posted.

webcam

WHOO HOO! Juan is the coolest and he got my webcam to work from my website! I can count on him for ANYTHING. He is radical.

You can view my webcam (if I am around) at:

http://www.theinfamousdance.com/webcam

Also, there is a link under the "About the Girl" section to your left.

Check it out fool.

newwebcam

Ok, so I got this really fun webcam (not at all necessary, but fun nonetheless) and the hope I have is to get a link to it on this website. The issue is I don't know how to get it broadcasting through my site. I have to figure it out. Juan and I will try and hash through it at some point.

For now, here is a pic of me as I'm writing this post...



Yikes. That's what I look like at 1:30 in the morning. I really should go to bed. If you chat with me on AIM, Yahoo!, or MSN... I am SO making you look at my webcam. It is my new toy. I enjoy it. I will probably only enjoy it for a month or so (much like my other toys in life) but it's fun for now.

Hooray for technology! (Even though I'm a little behind in this particular game.)

pamelaanderson

Who would have thought that Pamela Anderson and I would have something in common? (Other than our sensational breasts, of course.)

"Blonde beauty PAMELA ANDERSON is urging men to pursue her more persistently if they're hoping to romance her.

The former BAYWATCH star, ex-wife of rocker TOMMY LEE, is currently single, and she's having great difficulty in finding a new man, because none of her admirers chase her hard enough.

She says, "I would love to meet someone, but I want to be pursued. I think here in Hollywood there's a lot of men... (who believe in) one try and they're gone...

"There's not a lot of chivalry anymore and there's not a lot of real passion and people pursuing.

"One thing with Tommy was he followed me down to Cancun (Mexican resort), he asked me to marry him in four days. It was romantic, it was whirlwind-y and that's what every girl wants. They want to be chased. Not stalked, but chased."

22/08/2005 02:47
from contactmusic"

Wow. I agree with that blonde bimbo. Well, I can't call her a bimbo. She was smart enough to makeout (and more) with Tommy Lee. He's hot.

Also, on an unrelated note, there is nothing I hate more than people asking me to replace their nosepads on their glasses that are coated with green sweaty oily nose cheese. NONE of my glasses have nose cheese! I wear them FOREVER and they DO NOT have nose cheese! You know why?! BECAUSE I AM SANITARY.

P.S. Chase me boys.

killedfish

So I think I killed my fish. I am sad.

I was cleaning out his bowl and he was in this cup and he was freaking the crap out and attacking the cup. I am rushing and I finally finish and I put him back in the bowl he is used to and now he won't eat. I think he went blind when he attacked the cup. Like, maybe he hurt his eyeballs?



Also, I am sad because I didn't get to have my "sky time" today because I was gone all day at work and then I had some other personal stuff going on and now it is too dark to sit outside because I am scared that some scary guy will come and get me. I need a permanent bouncer to be around me. Not so much because I think people will attack me; more because I am easily scared in the dark.

Noble situation = sad. That's all I am saying.

However, I have been doing some fun things lately. Take for instance, work today. I moved the display that is in the middle of the floor and Katie and I blasted the Michael Jackson mixed CD I made and danced all around. It was awesome. I was really tempted to grab my crotch and do the moonwalk, but there were already too many people staring at us.

DIRTY DIANA! OH!

babyflipoff

tellme

happyversionofme

I had a wonderful conversation with a friend last night. It was one of those conversations that changes the course of your life; well at least I hope I change the course of my life.

Well, the gist of the conversation was that I need to do more that is done simply because it makes me happy. He pointed out that the majority of what I do is because someone else expects it of me or someone else needs it or wants it or whatever the case may be.

I have had a pretty hard last few days, and this conversation made me feel so much better. SO much better.

I have these objectives now: I have to look up and admire the sky for 10 minutes each day for 7 days, and I have to do at least one thing per day that is simply because I want to do it.

So far today I bought two new CDs (It Dies Today [thanks to a good suggestion] and the wonderful blues artist Queen Esther); I ate two bagels and the pulpy Good Flow orange juice; I sat on my butt and read "Bite Club"; I am about to go work out and stay there as long as I please, and after that I am going to sit outside my apartment complex in my special spot on Mopac and take in the sky. I am also going to listen to my new CDs and I'll go through all my old CDs and re-evaluate what all I own. Hell, maybe I will make a list of everything I have and alphabetize it and post in on the inside of my CD cabinet? I don't know exactly what I will do... maybe I will nap and not take a shower after I work out. That would be awesome.

I think I am going to enjoy this new found lifestyle. It better stick. I think everything that was said last night was exactly what I needed to hear and I am grateful for it.

OK. I'm out to do nothing important for you but lots of fun for me. Take that.

counteract

I re-read my last post and I felt way too negative, so I am posting something to counteract the gross negativity.

I am actually kind of excited about school starting. I will be graduating from the University of Texas in less than a year. May 2006, to be exact, with a Bachelor of Science in Radio-Television-Film. Wow. I managed to do it in 4 years, thank heavens. I don't think I could possibly have spent more money on anything else.

Classes for Fall 2005:

RTF 337 Radio Fundamentals
HDF 322 Personal And Family Finance
RTF 331R Performance
TD 303 Fundamentals Of Acting
RTF 344M Digital Media/Digital Art: Theory/Practice

Should be pretty exciting. What a wonderful senior year. Next semester I have 3 more RTF classes and 2 more upper division electives and I am done. I can't believe it.

In fact, I am scared. As Stephen and I discussed yesterday, it really is the end of youth. Everyone says high school graduation is the end of childhood, which I personally think is ridiculous. College is just as easy and the government or your parents (depending on how lucky you are with that whole parents having money thing) pays for everything you do. In fact, I know some people that don't even work during college. I can't understand that at all. What do you do with all your time?! Waste it, I guess. Nice.

Ok, this post was supposed to be a counteracting entry to the other complaining post and somehow this one evolved into something similar. I don't know how that happened. I must be moody today.

bothersome

I am at work. I am annoyed that I am at work. It feels like this summer just hasn't been long enough. School starts in less than a month. August 31st. Another annoyance.

So, be it as I am currently annoyed with a lot of stuff, I decided I would list the first annoying things that pop into my head.

1. When strangers ask to borrow my laptop.
2. When people I haven't heard from in years call me to ask for someone else's phone number.
3. When people have feelings about things that they never ever share.
4. The girls who eat like crap and never work out and are still hotter than me.
5. Not having money or food.
6. Routines.
7. Getting called 5 minutes before my alarm clock goes off.
8. The fact that Sunglass Hut smells like sewer right now and I have no idea why.
9. When friends misinterpret me.
10. When guys don't know when to back the eff off.
11. Someone speaking to me with bad breath.
12. When people believe that "NO!" means "Maybe."
13. The fact that Austin is the Live Music Capital of the World and the only decent radio station is student run and only on the air from 7pm to 7am.
14. I work my bum off to earn the appreciation of certain individuals and they still qualify me as second-rate.
15. Two-faced, hypocritical, fake idiots.

All right. I could have come up with more, but I wanted them to be off the top of my head. After #15, I was having to think up something, so I decided to stop there. I'm actually not in too bad of a mood... Weird.